dark_angel943

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

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As scary as it sounds. That sums up everything exactly heh. 
Tis been in my head all week, looked at it and im like "wow o.o"
Kinda scary though, EVERYTHING is in there.. 
So, thats whats up ^_^
Maybe a better update if im up to it..

Haha, just got them. I actually went walking to my driveway to get it! I'm quite happy ^^

English: I failed reeeeally bad. >.<; Last semesterI was ok, just passing, and now I'm way below it heh. Mum says it sucks =P. I think it's funny.. coz I never gave my assignments back. For all the sub-marks for it, I didnt pass any ROFL!

Food Creation: Failed miserably again. I apparently have no Technology skills -.-; Maybe it was because we blew up an egg, or made a cupcake into a muffin. Or other crap we "accidently" did. Hmm.. I wonder what Leah got =P Stupid teacher... Oh well.

Japanese: I just passed. I think thats heaps good though. Since I still dont know any words haha. I got an F for writing though! Haha.. that was the test where I scored 0% im guessing

Math: Got way over the passing mark. Soooo wikid. And I can't divide.. But I'm happy haha. Pretty awesome since maths was my worse subject last year! o.o;

Metal Work: Just passed, This mark shouldn't be mine though. I did nothing haha. THATS WHAT YOU DO IN A CLASS FULL OF BOYS! Haha.. 2 girls outta whole thing. How sad. I have some Technology Skills here! ; )

Music: Passed. And passed every sub-mark in it. Except Arts in Society. What does that mean? And I got top marks in the attirbutes. Yayy! Who knew I'd pass guitar? ROFL.. kidding -.-;

Physical Education: Passed it. Highest mark in the "end of year zone" so thats wikid. Was pretty gay though, coz I swapped classes. And did the same sports as last time. I call that cheating, but it was fun. 

Religious Education: Just passed again. Pretty good, since I never really payed attention. And always got moved. And yelled at.. and other stuff.. Bleh.. Got shifted to the front coz I turned and asked for glue... Oh well, last assignment, I got the top grade ^^; and she was very happy about my report, even though it didnt actually have anything to do with me, I got to lie about it haha! 

Science: Passed, very well indeed. Which is awesome, I hate science, and i didnt actually have friends in my class. 

Society & Environment: Passed once again. I did better last semester.. But I think coz they were assignments, and this time they were exams.. I'm proud. sure gonna miss that class though. Greatest people were in it ;.;

Homeroom: Hahaha.. I soooo have to write the letter she put on this. Its such bull, i do the opposite of everything she says!

"Crystal is a helpful member of the homeroom who is usually on time to homeroon and is always well groomed. She is achieving at the end of year target for most of her subjects which in commendable. Crystal has achieved excellent results in the area of Music and has achieved above the end of year target. Congratulations on your Learning Area Award for The Arts. I wish her all the best with her future pursuits."

~LIES!: I -always- turned up late, coz I was on the other side of the school, and went to my locker. And then I'm never well groomed coz I always get told off by other teachers, and never helpful coz I've never done anything for her? She's never asked. Grrr! Don't like that relief. Jason's one is -soooooo- funny, she said the worse things to him haha. Like how he's negative or whatever.  I laughed so hard ^^

Oh well.. school wasnt that bad this year. Hopefully will do better next year. Buts, I might get money for this report ^^.

 [Ups About the week]
Went to the zoo ^^ and got to take amazing pictures 
Went to Summerfest and caught up with friends! (Yay for Dan!)
Youth had A.D.D games! 
People that hate me at school got suspended! (who walks out of school grounds.. seriously.)
Listened to Reggie Dabbs at Summerfest AND church! Awesome..
I taught a drumming lesson! (Yes.. was asked to teach someone!!)
I was a teacher for one of my lessons! 
Sean turned up to the zoo drunk! AND FELL OFF THE MERRY-GO-ROUND! XD

[Downs of the week]
People getting suspended came back >.<
Got my results back from tests, failed. Must take them again
Josh couldn't come to Summerfest. Both were upset.
I have another test and essay to write. And I have no idea what for! o.o;
At the zoo.. Rove McManus* was there.. and my group was the only ones that didnt see him!
One good mate of mine has gone through severe depression and tried to take his life last night. 
Been sick! And sore.. and stressed >.<

[Things I'm looking forward too]
Singing at youth again on Wednesday!
-Might- be seeing Josh at youth on Wednesday ^^
Getting Amber's pics from the zoo! Haha, they so funny 
Suggesting an awesome song for RB and hopefully drumming for it! Emmy loves it too!
Best friend's birthday? ; )

[Things.. Im gonna wander about]
We are "apparently" playing a new song for youth. Which I dont know the lyrics OR chords too! And im "apparently" leading. Gonna be hilarious
Got another scratch across my arm.. and people are gonna give me more crap.. *sighs* One simple mistake and then "they" jugde you.
Need to find time to do homework, study, research and music! All before Wednesday hehe
Getting braces tightened tomorrow.. Damn you onthordontists! 

[Results on after the A.D.D games] (Me and Jess have so won.)
1 - Apple out of a bin.
1 -  maaaasive headache from diving in the bin. Head first.
1 -  best finger from smashing it on the bin while diving.
2 1/2 - Sardines (I threw up the other half)
1 raw egg
1 Sunkist
1 Spoon down my pants! HAHA! XD
= Being reeeeally sick with a cold.
Note To Self!:  Even though its not in a bath or a pool. you CAN NOT breathe underwater. And when you start drowing, kick Chris to let you up! (Damn i think I died. Got an apple though =P)

Title: Going in Blind
Artist: P.O.D

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One Day, Some Day

This life's not like you wanted it.
His eyes I can see again, I need you here.
In your mind, nobody's listening.
It's alright not to feel again, just breathe again.

Time after time, I walk the fine line.
Something keeps bringing me back.
And time after time, I'm going in blind.
I don't know which way I need to go.

Feels like your world is caving in.
And I cry, failing to understand, I wish I can.
It's alright if your missing him.
In His eyes you can live again, free within.

Time after time, I walk the fine line.
Something keeps bringing me back.
And time after time, I'm going in blind.
I don't know which way I need to go.

Time after time, I walk the fine line.
Something keeps bringing me back.
But time after time, I can't see the signs.
I don't know which way I need to go.

Do all these roads lead me back to you?
(Count on Nothing)
I don't know which way I need to go.
(Count on Nothing)
Do all these roads lead me back to you?
(Count on Nothing)
I don't know which way I need to go.

One Day, Some Day.

Time after time, I walk the fine line.
Something keeps bringing me back.
And time after time, I'm going in blind.
I don't know which way I need to go.

Time after time, I walk the fine line.
Something keeps bringing me back.
And time after time, I can't see the signs.
Do all these roads lead me back to you?
And time after time.
Do all these roads lead me back to you?

One Day.
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Schoolio:  Well.. it sucks, thats all I say. Too sum it all up. Im behind on work and assignments, I've lost my workbooks so had to start my assignment all over again, AND I've been hurt so much, i ran out of the room crying on Friday. People have just been so mean to me its not funny.. trying having a whole room just tease you and say how crap you look.. *sighs* I certainly feel it. And I have so many teachers lecturing me.. and wondering if im ok.. They even drag me out of class..

I've talked to mum about moving schools.. she doesnt mind, but says the school I want to move to, is heard that its not really good. I think thats just another way of saying no..

Churchies: Got baptised today. I was actually having second thoughts on going through with it. All up.. I did it.. very nervously. But still am proud of it. Went to a celebration party afterwards. Went for a swim, learnt that girls are alot better at water dodgeball then guys haha. Also learnt I CANT SWIM! And dont have big lungs haha. It was cool, except for a few problems thats been bugging me and Jess. When we realised how big it was, the day kinda.. lost from there.

ALL STARZ! I sang on Wednesday while playing guitar hehe. i couldnt hear anyhting, but from what peope told me, I sounded very good! Unfortunately, I kept on walking off, because I forgot Iwas singing haha. And in the end, it turned a mess. Because SOMEONE didnt see the lil ending action haha, and made me start playing to different guitar things. Oh the laughter.. and embarressment. I was told, if I wanted to, I can take over the music team and be Music Leader. Unfortunately, I turned it down, coz it means I have to find music, the cd and music sheets. And I have no money hehe
NOTE TO SELF: DONT USE METAL/STEEL PICKS! Slipperiest things ever, try singing, and leading guitar, while bending over and picking up a pick haha. 

SHOPPING SPREEE!: Not really.. just went out with Amy. Bought people really nice presents, and myself new bathers etc. For summer, overall, spent over $150! (I bought.. four things haha) I'm just really scared.. on how the heck I got the money.. I remember having some.. except dad stole half of it..

Other Stuffs..:Finally got in touch with Jacinta. First thing she said "I HATE IT HERE!!!" poor girl. But her school is so small, she got o go to the Year 12 ball! Sent me some piccies, and looked adorable. All up, she dont like it, and the shopping stuff there is apparently gay. I would love to live on a beach though..

With coming home today with no electricity.. I actually got to do something I havent done in a while.. lie down on the trampoline and watch the clouds go by. Being calm.. I got to actually have a think on what everything is happening around me, what is happening with some of my friendships, and how I can get through school, and the recent questions people have asked and lectured me on. All this.. left me having tears in my eyes. How everything is skrewed up atm.. but I still go to God etc. I know, that he does this for a reason, to test my faith. But i'm really wondering when it will finish, and if people will become alot clearer to me.

Pleeeease Pray ;.;
Ever since my brothers operation on his head. He's been pretty sick. And last week or so, he had to get another lot of skin taken off, (leaving a big hole in his head) recently, he's been getting so many nose bleeds and losing -alot- of blood. Before we use to just joke about it.. butlast night when it happened for the who knows how many time.. he actually started to cry. And Jess said that one of her teachers said this only happens constantly when something is wrong with the brain. (figure that.. he had operation on his head). Seeing my brother cry, actually broke me down, as he got sent home from work, kicked outta his room because he dirtied everything, i hate seeing him like this. I stayed up all night to just look after him.. and today.. he was willing to go to church (for once!), he woke up early and got ready, until it started again. And I told him to stay home.. all day I was just thinking about my own brother.. pretty sad..

People, have been thinking I've been, losing touch with them. Meaning, not acting as they are my friend or something close to that. And if I do act this way.. it's either because I have for a while, and you've made me upset, or because alot of things have been on my mind. I dont care, ask me if you think im annoyed at you, im willing to tell you about it *sighs* People are getting upset over nothing, I hate it.

Bah.. tis 3:00am and im wide awake and got nothing to do and no ones online...
Is bored....

School SUCKS! Tuesday i had reliefs for most of my classes, in health we had no idea what we were doing, so instead we gotta play whatever we could on the net. Which made me manage how to hack in the librarians stuff and unblocking some sites ; ). I got to talk to Xcylar alot then haha. RE I was Moses's wife.. and a cow.. and someone killing myself. Next class i skipped, and went to music instead hehe. yes the teacher knew of course, very fun, came out with alot more bruises on my hand though. And then Maths.. damn maths...!

- Lumen Live was on Friday. IT SUCKED! Zeke, Emily, Gibbo and I were just on the mattresses half asleep, and then Emily left.. Year 11's were best haha, only band that could play. We were told that we were second best! =D

-Dance is bugging me.. Cant wait till its over.. Oh gosh, going to school at 7.30 is illegal in my days. Went over to the theatre on Thursday, alot fun =). Except for lunch CHICKEN TREAT SERVICE IS GAY! DONT GO! Me and Zeke waited an hour till we got ordered..  Its on Thursday!! Cant wait.. even though im ridiculously scared.. 

Southside is going well. Not to excited going back soon though. 

ENGAGEMENT PARTAY!! Went out with my cousin Cassandra, her friend and my sister yesterday to get ready for Cas' engagement party. Went to Galleria.. five hours.. two shops.. both which I sat there doing nothing. They got their nails done, which I had no money to do, and hair, which I didnt want to do.. So boredom.. and not having me eat a proper meal since the Friday afternoon got me really.. slow. Wnet back to her place.. dont really wanna say what happened there. But the rest of the night I was surrounded by drunks, so funny

My new name is now known as either.. Betty (from Michelle), Friggin idiot (from Zeke) and Gozzi Bogan from everyone else from dance. Yessums, grabbed lunch at HJ's today but walking with no shoes and wearing full black. I got alot of scars =/